Anyway, I've been pretty useless this weekend for getting anything done, I've only managed "Mr. Mom" stuff, which I suppose has its place, but not getting any projects knocked down makes me feel like shit ... but feeling like shit is half the problem with getting around to the projects ... so I need to get back on the ACF so I don't feel quite so much like a pile of pointless crap.
I read a thing in
not_you's journal that made me sad/depressed ... it was a thing about her connecting with her "inner 8 year old". I can't even imagine getting around the stress, angst, fears, tension, etc. in my life to get back to my inner 8-year-old ... the best I can manage is when I'm doing a lot of reading, which is at least reaching back to my "inner teen-to-20-something", but it doesn't have the sense of freedom she was talking about, since when I read, it's obsession-driven, goal-oriented, and constantly self-judgemental ... but at least it produces "read" books on the shelf ... and there are so damned few things that I can count as "successes" in my life that finishing a book is about what I have to settle for.Yeah, sucks to be me.
