BTRIPP (btripp) wrote,

Wow ...

James Villas' agent's office is just a block or so down the street from where we lived when I was a little kid in New York City ... this is just turning me inside-out with bittersweet memories. I pulled up Google maps and did the satellite thing, and saw the building I used to live in when I was 3-9 years old, and started to remember stuff from that neighborhood (79th St. between 1st and York ... his agent's office is between 2nd and 3rd).

It is amazing to me that I have almost NO memories that are not "anguished" in some way. In the last poem I posted I ask "when was the breaking?" and it must have been very early on. I sometimes wonder if all my psychological "issues" date back to my Father's death when I was 2 years old. Anything that is "gone" from my life (be it stuff that used to be in my neighborhood 40 years ago or stuff I might have lost last week) twists up my gut with a real visceral sense of loss.

As usual, "sucks to be me", I guess.

Visit the BTRIPP home page!

  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.