BTRIPP (btripp) wrote,

"self assessment" is a BITCH

Man ... I just fucking hate these things. At my meeting on Thursday at the Career Transitions Center, the coach suggested that I pick up this book which was "for people in my position". Well, it turns out to be sort of a "focus on who you are and what you'd like to do" sort of thing, and I've plowed about half-way through it at this point.

The problem I'm having, though, is that these things are inevitably framed in psychological categories that I just don't use. It's like I was trying to successfully bake a cake that I'd never tried before, but all the questions I'm getting to "help me" are dealing with changing the oil in an automobile, or something equally as disconnected.

Of course, it doesn't help that I've essentially not had a job for at least five years, so all those "in your current work situation ..." things don't mean shit as far as my reality, so I'm constantly having to "tap dance" out some half-assed answer based on a mix of previous experiences. Also, generally speaking, I'm the guy who answers "3" on every 1-5 scale question, because (unless the questions are extreme) my opinion on things tends to be highly situational and an option of "it depends" would probably be my choice for most things asked of me! Needless to say, this makes it difficult to use any of these "standardized" things to "sort" me into a category. To start off, this book has six "work situations" which it purportedly can help you with ... but I "qualified" for FIVE out of the six, making it damn hard to "focus" on any given set of approaches!

Bleh ... needless to say, I'm just venting, but this sort of crap always gets me depressed. I always end up feeling like I've had to LIE (or make up a "fairy tale") just to fit their categories, and then end up with "solutions" which (to use my previous analogy) end up like "high viscosity bundt pan surprise", neither what I need, nor what they intended.

Needless to say, it feels like I'm on the wrong planet, amid strange creatures that I have nothing in common with. No wonder I can't get a fucking job! At least Thomas Jerome Newton and Valentine Michael Smith had a zillion things to patent here to make vast fortunes ... it's a bitch being an alien with no tech collateral.

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